This week of re entry has been challenging. I felt great about coming home, I was ready. . .often I cry, anticipating 'reality', not this time!
Upon waking Monday, I realized the fetal position would serve my need nicely. Although I arose to sit in meditation, I was frozen to the bone. From 84 degrees to thirty one in five hours; from Summer glow to Winter's icy grip. We needed groceries, mail and Mirage! So I had to push past my primal need. At two I was back in bed. Mirage and I needed this down time together. Dan went to work without a whimper:) When Mirage and I awoke from our nap I knew that was what we needed:to thine own self be true!
Tuesday I swore to lie low but the remodeling men ousted us from bed early. Hammering and sawing assaulted my senses, there was no place to hide. Dan and I returned to our swim class. Days ago I slept to the sounds of waves lapping the beach and felt it's salty rhythmic pull on my legs underwater. I have found such comfort in aqua core class Our daily swims in Maui, such ease, joy, laughter!
A night of quiet at last cuddled with Mirage by the fire.
Wednesday was another day of retreat and walking Mirage. Thursday I know it was necessary to begin my reluctant journey into the present. To Connect outside the home. I scheduled a ride to yoga and wanted to cancel. I was not ready. The sun is warm and Mirage and I lay outdoors together, we doze, cool breath inside sun kissed bodies. The two week vacation with Dan was perfect, every minute of everyday together.
And the swimming! Such raw pleasure to be free in water. . . .my new love. I 've stepped back from yoga and the intensity of self study.
Yoga is in everything! The practice pervades all I do, it is my breath and my open heart. I set my practice aside for the week to relax into the present. Can't everything be perfect just the way it is? I am pausing often to forgive my lovely body and geneticly programed to degenerate eyes. It was real to be back in class, opening my heart and holding my truth compassionately. t
This post is really about being Free and Hiding.
The freedom a trip to Hawaii brings is bittersweet. Because I can pass as sighted when accompanied by Dan who loves and guides me. The painful transition occurs when I step back into my life and find contentment by loving the life I have!
Reentry is also a good time to take inventory of the life I have created. Let's keep the freedom in the life I have. embrace Mirage, my sweet good guide. Counting my Blessings!